Jacob past away peacefully in my arms on 2/1/10 at 11:35pm, that morning around 2:30sleep was not going to happen, with so much zipping in & out of my head from what I did not say to what I could have done differently. Nothing felt real, we left the hospital with out our precious Jacob!?!? Numbness, I have no other way to to describe my feeling. I just knew I had so much to say to Jacob, so I started to write. I need rewrite the letters into the computer so I can start posting them, of course that has to be done one at a time, UGH.