Saturday, July 22, 2023

A weight on my chest

Dear Jacob, 

Our Handsom young man,

I woke this morning with a weight on my heart, was it the week I had, or maybe the silent dreams I had last night.  I woke with you on my mind, the heartbreak of losing you, being able to hold you, hug you, kiss you, listen to your voice, and your laugh. Somedays it's just so raw, You will never hear me say losing you, my child is easy, over time I'm able to deal with the pain but it is always there.💔  Life goes on, dealing with the loss gets easier.

Jacob I see you so clearly, I close my eyes, you're right there an arm length away. This Oct we will be coming up on your 21st birthday,  I can only picture you being about 5'6", brown hair medium build, a smile that would light up the room and a people person personality with a splash of goofy, you would be strong & confident.

You would have a little brother that would look up to you and try to follow in your footsteps, you would have been that great Big Brother.

Jacob, how much do I love you!❤️

Yes this much!!(arms stretched out)

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Until I see you, love you so much!!

Love, Mommy!!!